I kinda decided, for my senior year, I want to dye my hair red. Basically around the end of the year. Something new I want to do before I enter the real world. I want to feel new and everything. 

~Almost like the color of a velvet cake, not to dark or to light. :3

YAY! May 24th is coming and that means summer break is on its way sooooon. :D *EXCITED*

For some reason I can’t push myself to being in a relationship. I’m just scared that what had happened before would happen again. Or maybe I’m just picky or wanting to just wait after high school or senior year. I just want to focus on school maybe. That’s probably why I can’t be in a relationship. Geez. Don’t I just hate myself…. lol

“In my eyes, you don’t see what I see in you”. He says.

I just like the people and the city there. Yeah that’s right I’m just going because of the amazing mall. >->

So yeah today we went out to play lap tag again! IT WAS A BLAST! More people MORE fun. Honestly there were a few punch that I couldnt wrestle down and hold but most of them I held them down like a man…. (uh not literally) I got to really meet new people. I really like that. Though today it was like an adventure, other than lap tag. Since my stomach was like bothering me like hell and so was my friend Hannah. We walked to “Big Lot” since it was right by the park to use the bathroom. Like seriously, there was only two bathroom stalls and me and my friend just had to take a SHIT! It was so awkward though but no she just talked to me over the stall. ahaha. Best time yet. But the thing is I didn’t have to take a shit at all…… -_- I just had gas that bothered me…. A LOT! Seriously embarrassing but, she told me taking a shit together was something to make less weird. So any who, when we came back we just started playing the game. Grass burn is just horrible. I mean like seriously wrestling your partner off or holding them down is hard enough for me but, I kicked back the pain and kept playing since that’s the point of the game. I’M seriously a BEAST at this game. Will only if I could really get myself loose from my partners grasp that is. Mostly it’s all about kicking ass or the nuts if youre against guys. LMAO. So yeah when I got home my curfew dropped to “before 8” Like wtf. I really cant wait to just kickass out of the house when I get to college or whatever. :P

Also Weather was PERFECT! Again Me will play Lap Tag and have another Pawsome day ^^ :)

OMGAWD best game in the whole wide world! 

Have any of you ever heard of lap tag?

I have not until today! It was raining a bit today so it was muddy. Me and my friends went to the park and everyone got a partner and one of them wont have one. When everyone got a partner we formed a circle including the unpartner player. Basically the game is like a wrestling game. This is how it goes. 

haha just kidding. :D I’m not going to type a whole instruction about how to play lap tag. Check it out for yourself and have your friends play it too. ;D

{ check it out on youtube } Basically look that game up. :)

Gosh people don’t notice how music just wants to move me…. I mean that happens to a lot of people right but, I mean seriously when you first hear music your body just has to move with it. :D (That’s why I usually drag someone to come dance with me in a crowd.) ;D

ANYWAYS: Happy Laos New Year! 

Things I guess are getting patched up. One piece at a time. I wonder, does things like this happen so often? To me that is. Answer, no. I just focus on one person, make that person feel like my whole world. Is that a good thing? sigh* So many self questions, I might have to answer them myself one of these days. 

~ For some reason the weather sets my moods. 

-I dunno it is weird but it just does. 

-FYI, I am so much happier during the summer. I smile so much more and I just feel free. Probably because school is over and there is no care in the world about school until August. lol.

Right now I just feel so settled. Just relaxed.

Just…… so……… relaxed. I like that feeling.

Honestly, I try so hard to impress my other peers that I really haven’t looked in the mirror to impress myself for once.

Ahhh, the scary major test is tues-thur. I am so nervous. Even when people say it’s super easy it freaks me out even more than usual. The HSAP is a test that 10th graders and up need to pass to graduate. If you dont pass all three of the tests (english-reading, english- writing, math) you would have to take the ones you failed on. Gir. Welp good luck to me I hope I pass the first time so it would not mess up my schedule for my next year classes.